A bunch of things
February 6, 2003 | 11:41 AM

I. Jealous of Dragon

Omg. Dragon can call Tamora Pierce. Dragon can call Tamora Pierce. The author Tamora Piece. Omg, I’m jealous. Very jealous.

II. Winter nights

I hate winter nights. They’re cold, no matter what I do. I can’t sleep through the night because the cold wakes me. I can’t do anything about it; I’m already up to three blankets. I wish I could sleep through the night! I hate waking at four… I spend an hour shivering (and in this morning’s case coughing), and then finally get back to sleep, only to wake a couple hours later to go to school (or in this morning’s case, to take meds). I hate it! Why can’t I sleep through the night for once?

III. Homework

I called to get my homework today. At 9:00, I got no answer. I tried again at 10:30. Turns out, I had to call before 9:30 to get my work. Hello! I did! But no, I can’t get my work till tomorrow. And we may have a snow day tomorrow, so I’ll have to wait longer if it happens. Sigh.

Oh, thank goodness. Mrs. Kifer (can’t spell her name…) just called. She said that she’s putting out my work request, and she’ll call later to say how much of it she got back for my mother to pick up. Thank goodness for her!

IV. Missty

I talked to Missty this morning.

I remember a while ago. I tried to stay offline, and one of my excuses was my schoolwork, even though I had A’s and B’s. She got totally annoyed at me over that and other things. I deleted the e-mail a few weeks ago when I was going through my Hotmail mail (right before I switched to Finaldraftbooks), but if I remember correctly she said I was loosely an annoying brat and she didn’t want to talk to me, and all this other stuff. And she figured out my name, though she spelled it wrong (she spelled it Deborah).

Today, she didn’t seem all that thrilled to find me on, to put it lightly—she didn’t sound like she wanted to talk to me at all. There was just an edge in what she said that gave me that impression. Either that, or I imagined it. I wonder, though. Does she still see me like that? Drat, I don’t remember her exact words. An annoying brat? That’s about what it was, I think. I don’t know if I’ll ever find out.

If she does, what can I do to change that? I don’t want to be seen like that. I admit, last year even I can see that I acted like that, a bit. I never meant to get anyone mad, though. Pyph forgave me. I don’t know if Marsodin forgave me (whole different story there, whole different situation). Missty, I have no idea. It sure doesn’t sound like it. I don’t like the way I acted, and I admit that it was horrible. I just wish I knew how to make people see that I’m not like that anymore! I don’t want people to have that impression of me. I wish they could see how I am now. I wish.